An Uninspired State of Mind

Published by Laurie on Tagged Financial, Life, Mindset

I haven’t felt very good the past few days.  There is some kind of flu-like virus traveling through my household.  First the kids, then my husband, now me.  It’s nothing serious, just achy, headache, sore throat, and general malaise.  It doesn’t do much for my psyche either.  I feel tired and blah and completely unmotivated.

A few months ago I set a goal to try do something positive for myself at least once a day, no matter how small.  So today, I’ve been surfing the internet here and there, looking for some motivation, some inspiration on fixing my financial situation.  Something, anything, to motivate me to get down and dirty with the money situation, and hopefully get me out of this funk, at the same time. 

I found tons of great inspirational stuff.  Inspirational quotes, success stories, rags to riches accounts, all meant to leave you inspired and motivated, and usually they do. You realize that there really is a way out and you can take control of your life. You come away feeling inspired.  Instead, today, all of the “inspirational stuff” leaves me with a feeling of being a big loser.  It started with this article on MSN, Retired by 50: Real Life Stories, an intriguing title, hey, just what I need to feel better (I love the real life stories).  So I’m reading about these people, people like me, middle class, struggling with bills and kids and jobs, picking themselves up and making great changes in their lives, saving money, getting out of debt, and in some cases retiring by age 50!  I’m thinking; I’m almost 45 and I’m a financial planner’s worst nightmare.  I am such a loser.

Well, there you go, great article, tons of information, giving hope to the hopeless, yet today,  the entire point is totally lost on me.  Again, loser.  If Tony Robbins or Wayne Dyer could hear me right now, they would probably whack me upside the head, and I’d deserve it.  Today, I’m completely unmotivatable.  (apparently, that’s not a word, spell-check is freaking out)  Loser.

Rationally, I know that this self loathing isn’t really reality, though it feels pretty bad.  I know, rationally, that I’m not a loser, even though I feel like one right now.  I know, rationally, I felt great a couple of days ago, hopeful and enthusiastic and nothing has changed.  I know rationally, that I feel lousy now because my entire outlook on life is being influenced by my feeling ill.   I just feel sick and tired, and therefore crabby and emotional.  My state of mind feels just as bad as my physical state.  It’s my rational brain’s way of telling me to go home, take some Advil, get into bed, and stop trying to make any life decisions right now. 

After reading over this post, I think I may have just motivated and inspired myself to do just that, something positive, to go home and get some rest.  So I guess I’m not a loser after all, I’m an inspiration.
 

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September 18th, 2007